2/21

Today's class was a roller coaster.  We started off with our breathing and concentration exercises, everyone calm and relaxed.  But with some of the more involved exercises concentration was broken and there was a lot of giggling that I think threw a lot of people off balance.  I know personally I'm very goofy and like to laugh a lot so sometimes I think it is hard to not laugh at some of the things that we have to do.  However, compared to the beginning of the semester I have gotten A LOT better at controlling myself and concentrating on what we are told to do.
     The one activity where we had to close our eyes and feel for different people and act out different scenarios there was one where you told us to imagine ourselves hugging our mother.  I remember this one specifically because I was still looking for someone to hug when you told us to pretend it was our mother.  For some reason I got a little upset that I wasn't hugging her at that moment yet everyone else got to.  I'm not the most sentimental or imaginative person but I wish I had been hugging my mom because I love her very much and she's always there for me and I do miss her (although I may not act like it).
     I was not surprised when we were snapped at today for laughing.  I don't think everyone was taking it seriously, but I also don't think everyone realized that we were supposed to be so serious about it.  But I do think that because of the tone words used to scold us everyone will now know that we need to take our exercises seriously.
     After this class I do feel closer with everyone and as though I can trust them.  I know now that they are not judging me and I feel a lot more comfortable acting out the exercises and expressing my feelings.