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     Today we had to close our eyes and the professor walked us through an imaginary scenario.  I know it sounds weird but I don't think I did mine right.  In my vision I saw people I knew.  My mom was the person who was facing me, my ex-boyfriend was standing behind her, and my current boyfriend was the one who knocked on the door later on.  I think that the professor told us that he had not asked us to think about people we knew, but just to pretty much see what we saw...if that makes any sense.  But I actually liked what I saw.  I was torn in the beginning because my ex-boyfriend is really hot and I do miss him, but when my current boyfriend knocked on the door and pulled me away I was so glad.  I love him so much and he makes me feel so much happier and safer.
     We were told to go home and try something new.  We were to enter a room with people in it and not say anything and see what happens.  I walked into the kitchen where my two best friends were having an argument.  Both of my friends are EXTREMELY opinionated, which is actually totally opposite of myself.   I usually get really uncomfortable when they start arguing.  They are not so much as arguments but debates.  Neither of their feelings get hurt but they definitely can say some hurtful or opinionated things.  I hate being confrontational and usually just make a joke or say something stupid so that people will stop bickering...ANYWAYS...they were arguing so I was actually excited to see what would happened when I entered the room.  Well I guess I'm no head turner...they just kept arguing!  From one opinion to the next they kept talking.  I think I was standing there for about a minute before they actually looked over at me.  I think I made them feel bad because they know how stupid I think it is to argue and how awkward I get around it.  When they looked at me both of them smiled.  I'm glad they did because it meant that it wasn't actually a serious issue they were discussing, but something menial.  I had actually just gotten back from this class so one of them asked me how my second day in my crazy beginning acting class was going.  From there we just went on to talk and eat dinner together, with more stupid talk more than bickering thank god.