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Today we learned how your words and body motions are related or connected. The length of the actions and words should be intertwined.  Later we laid on the ground with our eyes closed and hummed.  We were able to push the hums to the center spot between our eyes and be able to feel the vibrations.  When the professor came and shook my feet out I could feel my hums moving with my body.  Then the professor told me to make the noises of a cat having an orgasm.  I had my eyes closed and starting moaning/screaming meow.  There were other animal noises too like a sheep bahing.  Then we moved around and played with the other animals.  Ivy asked me to be her pet so I then sat with her and meowed.  Then we partnered up and I got to drive my partner around while she had her eyes closed.  I know she was supposed to trust me but even I was nervous!  When we started to have to drive at higher speeds and run faster there were a lot of cars running around too.  I think I was actually less nervous when she was driving me and I had my eyes closed.  I trusted her and it was easier because I didn’t have someone else relying on me so heavily.  Why is it sometimes easier to trust someone else rather than yourself?


I know this isn't much of an acting related question but I did find it strange that I felt more comfortable being the car rather than the driver and it got me thinking.  I think I'm the type of person who gets really nervous under pressure.  Like in a soccer game when we're losing a game and I know that the coach is relying on me to do something like score or assist but for some reason I just seem to break down.  I don't like being under pressure even though I know it happens all the time in life and I know that I need to get better at dealing with it.  I don't think I have much confidence in myself when it comes to those situations but I know that other people show a lot of confidence in me.  Why is that?  I don't know why I can't seem to find it in myself even though other people can.  I wonder if other people feel the same way.  Like the way I had confidence in Ivy, I wonder if she was really nervous about driving me around while I had my eyes closed.  I felt comfortable trusting her and she seemed calm and confident but I wonder if on the inside she was freaking out a little bit about whether or not she would run me into another person or a wall or something.  Just something I was thinking about...